Thoughts behind the artwork...

For the many who suffer from low self esteem. For a large portion of my early life I suffered from low self esteem. I believed that I had nothing to offer. I believed that I lacked worth and no matter how hard I tried it was never going to change. I believed that I deserved to be alone. During times of introspection, I delved Into The Depths of Self Deprecation. Deep within I felt that the judgement placed upon myself was also the judgement of the world around me. My reflection was cursed. This crippling Self Deprecation only fueled the self destructive lifestyle that I lived for many years.

Over time I came to realize the truth. This crippling self image was completely wrong, and it had been all along. It was an illusion of my own making. It was also mine to dispel.

-John Alexander (aka SirJohn)

Another topic that plays a predominant role in my body of work is that of depression. Once again, there are so many facets to this issue. Having battled it myself, I have always wanted to represent these facets visually so that those who understand can relate to what they are seeing. Often times, people will look at my imagery and only see darkness. For those who have stood in darkness, these images are intended to shine some light so that they may feel they were never really the only ones to feel as they have felt.