Anyones Story: Chapter three
Chapter three: The Light
As I stood amongst those I thought so different, waging an inner war none could understand I came to a realization. I realized that I had lost my place of peace. I realized that I had no true friends. But then I saw the light of reason at last. I realized none of that really mattered anymore.
As my strength left me and I was ready to give up a revelation hit me. It was like a quiet voice assuring me that everything was all right. Never had such a thing happened to me. Maybe it was always there but I was not listening, I don't know. But that voice was like a searchlight in the darkness.
I was not alone after all. I looked around at all of those people around me and realized that they were no different than I was. Then I remembered my secret place and realized that there would be many other places that could hold the same peace for me. I felt strength return to my legs. I got up on my own two feet. I held my head high and looked around me with clear, innocent eyes seeming to see the world around me for the first time. I realized I was ready to fight.
If I was to fight I knew I had to confront that demon inside of me head on. I knew that I could not deceive myself or the demon would win and all would be lost. But I had a new weapon on my side that the demon could not withstand; I had the light of reason shining down upon me at last. The demon kept me in darkness with its cunning deceit. I no longer was in the dark.
As I stood in that very light I discovered the ugly truth. The demon was exposed to me now and to my total shock I found that the demon was ME! I had spent all of that time running from myself. I pointed the finger and placed the blame of my suffering on a demon that was really only me. Fear and revulsion filled me at the sight of this dark and twisted inner self. It was time for the toughest fight one could ever wage….
-John Alexander (aka SirJohn)
